she has great taste,
and ure nt my type.

4th August 2008.
11th month anni ! (as stated in hp)

Yea, tomorrow. Our eleventh month anniversary. Supposed to. But its over. The eighth month msg is still my favourite. But what has been done, cnt be undone. can it ? If only i could do something. I would realy love to change you. Not for me, but fr yourself. I know, you wont live happiness, if this goes on. 27 rejab, i wished that god would give you th strength and guide you to change and that someday, our dream would be real. someday. Maybe , i was being silly. Love ? Is this love. I doubt so. Fanatic, i say. Im dumb. Silly me. What do i see when i close my eyes ? These; our sunday nights, the sunset, the beautiful awesome sunset, the morning walk, our very first date, the way you tell me you love me, the way you look me in the eyes, you are th music in me, kiches, th way i pushed you and you pulled me back into ur arms, th way you lie on my shoulder and tell me, " imagine one day, you're here all by yourself, without me. ", the way we had the serious conversations, the day you asked me to be yours forever, the way you called me your bby, the way you apologised for the silly mistakes you did, th way you called on me and recite the surahs to me, th way you read of al-quran, those times when we argued over small things, those times you went down on ur knees and 'proposed', those time when we played pepsi cola 123, those times you feed me, those times when you take away my specs and told me hw beautiful i was without it, those time when you made me feel safe, those times when you hugged me tight and say tht everythings gna be fine, the very first kiss we shared, the very first time we talked, the very time you whispered to me, those times you taught me hw to play cards, those times you showed me 'magic', the spark, the everything. ohgod. memories. beautiful ones. someday, i'll learn to live without them. Thank you fr everything.
new past