I cant stand i cant stand i cant stand this talking neighbours, ugh.
I swear i swear i swear my temper nowadays like shit, ugh.

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okay, life been sucking. suck in suck out seriously, temper has been updown. uncontrolable. been shouting at sistas for no reason. been pissing mom off for no reason. been rude to daddeyh fr umpteen times, fr no reason. seriously, moooooooood been way fcuked down. been way unfriendly to online friends, sorry korang. been being bitchy when gg out, to strangers, to cleaners, to toddlers. gosh, sorry yall.

and friend-dekat (friendlaintkmoterasa), yea i know ME and i'll certainly do something about it. No worries. For this, i guess i can do smth to change it all. As long as im able to, i'll try. Things will be back as it, i hope. And you wont have to worry nomore. I promise. Even if things are unchangeable, i'd change me for you. so sorrrreyh.

*jerk you sucka you.

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2 solid hours of pure walkin. Walked walked, nothing more. Just walked. Now my body's achin. Ache ache, nothing more. Just achin'. Pain, inside out. Ruined mood, ruined weekend. I swear im hatin' every bit of this. Jugglin relationship, friendship, studies and matters of life. My life. Everythings messed up; my thoughts, my feelings, my mind. sigh.

You're just unchangeable syg. No matter how long i wait to see you change,no matter how much ive gave just to see you change, just aint worth it. You just gta dissappoint me time and again. Someday, i just hope to see you matured enough to carry through a lifetime-relationship with your one. Hope its me, i doubt so. Im patient, yes. But ive my limits.

Kawan syg, i am sorry we're in this state. I hope there aint no grudges or doubts between us. Not anymore, please. Not when august coming. It just that, imma human with ma own thoughts and feelings. I just need time time and more time. I say, God's been Fair and thank god. imma bad girl. and i wna be a bad-girl-gone-good this time round. so give me space and time.


I SAY I WANT SPACE AND TIME.

* imma sad bitch, you're a happy slut. now GONE.

Labels: sad bitch.

Im all confused. I dont know. Im just fcuked up with everything now ar. Studies, him, her, them. Its just that, uh. I dont knw how to put it in words alright. And beb, im giving way alright. i just thought that you've gone thru alot this year and she would be perfect fr you to lean on alright. I dont mind sharing, at all. But i dont want her to get the wrong idea. I never did or have any intention to leave you or anything. never did. And im sorry, you, fr making you think im taking her away frm you. I knw you do mind and i mind too. Im afraid im gna be a burden or being someone tht gets between anyone. i dont want. And im frustated uh. crazy pig siaaaal. You. YOU.Youuuuuuuuu're taking away THEM from meeee. I guess you're tht wanted kinda person, but wtf. I mind. But i knw if i say it too, it'll bring me nowhere except more harm. And wtffffff lar cb. idk whats with you siaa. Go lar with your twin, your daddy, your everyone. I seriously cant be bothered siool. eh siaaaala, GIVE UP SIAAAAAK. 2008 SUCKS BADLYYYYYYY TO THE INNER SOUTTTH. DEEP SOUTH !

* so lets nw all pretend nothing happened, and get on with life. Terasa, ur pasal. cause i cant be bothered kkkkkk. BYE.


Forget about me

You said,
it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again.
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery.
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy 'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly 'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.
Too late, sorry. I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Was this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved youIt feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.
Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you'Coz heaven knows
I've tried.
Tell me you're still in love.
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved youIt feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.
Forget about me
I really love you.

By Little bit.


What about me ?
How will i live without you ?
Why do have to do all this ?
When will you ever change ?
Where did i go wrong ?

Answer me.

You've been Selfish,
All that you thought off was ur rights as a Boyfriend,
but what about me ?

You've been self-centered,
All that you bother was yourself
and your wants tht you desires,
but what about me ?

You're mean.

Dear you,

I cant help it. I was so scared of you. Not that im trying to use this as a reason. fr godsake, no. Neither tht i wna let go off you nor i hate you, lets just take this as a time fr us to cool down. No use us going on without getting the fact right. The fact tht our feeling is all now mixed up. Use this period of time for you to be sure of what you feel fr me or fr her. Use this period of time to let your mom believe you and gain back all tht trust frm her. Use this time for us to clear things up, all doubts. I've shed too many tears and yet nth has much change since the very first time.

Love,
Me

Bestfriend,

Im sorry to have put you in a spot. I can't believe tht i almost strangled you. Lucky, i got a hold of myself. and tht im sorry to put you through such shit tht you dont deserve at all. I was stupid, i was dumb. I shouldnt have let you go through it all with me. Its me, you dont have to be in it in anyway. Uh, im just so sorry. Whatever it is, im just so gratefull tht i got you. realy.
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