*waves goodbye to Hakim
Have a safe trip duuut!

There must be a reason why ive been sitting in front of the computer screen and do nothing since athira went offline, but i simply cant come out with a reason yet. I wondah why. Perhaps i like stoning. Yes? Yeah. Perhaps stoning allows me to think. Yes? Yeah. I wanted to talk about stoning a second ago and i decided not to anymore. I wondah why. I think its time.

Basically everyday i do nothing except grow fatter. Please friends, do still acknowledge me when we meet along the corridor. Ahh -cries. Omeega, im already forgetting how everyone looks like, What Is this? Help ): Not long ago while i was drinking water, i suddenly thought of Billy Amshire but i became upset cause i frgot how he looks like. Seconds before i imagined him with hairy head, I quickly grabbed my hedgepee and browse thru pictures and sighed. I miss friends.

Lemme list friends,

Sari Shunchine Mama Frh Eatzabella ohgeewhy Kecik Ri Amshire Zeek Yzsr Asher Syapi Jo Syapik Puts Apiq All

I miss how all these people collides and come out with one huge wave eating my life.
Come come wave, eat me.

Shall i knock yr door and ask you out pretty? Shall i lead the dance and call you my beauty? Shall i bring you to the movie? Shal i tuck the chair in fr you my honey? Maybe you do it for me. While i wave goodbye. I'm pretty tired trying. I'm pretty tired being. Shall i stop? Maybe, just maybe. Will you make me smile once more? Im not sure, make me. Im pretty sure all's no difference. Am i wrong? Tell me, in one way or another. I placed you everywhere. In the cracks to tht bin. Well used to. Im using it quite well. Throw in more. I ran, so what? I hide before too. No extreme. No thrill. No nothing. Shall i shave it all? or should i leave it hanging. I look pretty like this. Lets wait fr another while. Meanwhile, lets fly.

Hello pretty. Let's talk about life. Shall i start? sure. I guessed its gna happen soon. What thing? Growing! Somehow i thought i was nine. but looking at the mirror, im sure im older. Ah yes, im fourteen. noticing that i grow every second every minute, i panicked. It has already happened for god sake, I shall stop guessing. Back to time. -faints. I hate ticks and tocks. Lets all timenap. No, lets all pray.

-hug readers

I'm always behind time! Did you know how many OMG did i said today? i think i said it like 94572650 times. So thank you Amirul fr letting me into yr blog and lemme have the shock of my life, i say again AGAIN, thank you. Tsk, people nowdays. I sad you know. But Im happy im not living under one roof with them. Like terribly Happy. This thing called internet/web/online just gimme alot of surprises and mostly are NEGATIVE ones. I should realy stop calling it 'Surprises' since it's alr been too many of em and it is so no surprising anymore. Last time, it has always been about " Meyyyyyn, i should realy keep it low profile, i got shame". And now its all about, "This is life what, MY life, so heck those ppl, they gt no right over me, i rather lose my dignity". And whoev ppl reading this should be gg somehow like, "What the Heck Ameera, Loser! ". Yeah, imma loser, stating facts. They can easily put anything, everything up all over, everywhere but fr sure they'll note it somewhere: This is MY life so ya whatever. Ya right whatever.

Sure its been a busy week this week. Student Leader Camp was AWESOME. "Incredibles is AWESOME, Incredibles is HOT". Ive got so many to talk abt it ah like so many! hehe but just lemme talk about the appropriate and necessary things. HAHA. Okay, favoret part was the running frm rain. Favoret activity was butt shift thing something idk. Favoret thing is tht i made new friends and the bond btw us FUH. Ya Congrats to Syatirah only (sp?) fr getting the tittle as ' Ms. Superhero' :D

Okay lets talk about today, shall we? I love my mother, i love my mom, i love my mommy, i love my mama, i love my ibu, i love this person called mother, i love this person whose name is Sarinah which is my mother and i love mommy. Thank You so much mommy fr Today! I GOT A NEW PORANGER PJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i cant wait to show it off to Amirul and Ri. hehe.

YAY! (balloons)

And Congrats to Khairi Yahya for being the best male camper :)

Have you ever feel very dissappointed?

Of course i have. When those times when i thought i could do it, when those times my hopes gets too high, when those times i was very excited and almost pee in my pants. Ah, all those moments (': but it wont turn out very nice if what i hoped for, what i wished for or what i wanted totally gets destroyed in any ways. My hopes, my wishes, my desire, my needs, my wants all rejected. Especially when they have to take it away frm me. Especially when they turn their back on me. Especially when they stepped and kicked it. Especially when they look at me with that insulting eyes. Especially when they isolated me. When i realised my hopes were flying away too far and i gta jump to catch it back, i know frm tht moment, i cant get it back. When it was in my hands, its my fault to have let it go. And also when i realised what im talking or typing doesnt make sense at all. It realy hurts ):

i realy wna post longer but im outta words.

Finally finally finally out of words D:





KITE RUNNER.

ahh yes yes mesti watch ni story! (btul tak tiragirl19994?) hehehehehehehe. okay THANK YOU you all fr the wishes, presents, countdowns, hugs and surprises. I LIKE SIOWWWWWWW! so 3 more hours the day tht i lived for, ends. And next i'll live for 2nd nov 09. LIFE. i malas nak update ah you, so smpai sini. dah dah!

(thank you Ri, Ahmad and Tiragirl ^^)

new past