This is my second post for the year and I dislike being all-so negative, but This is me, ranting about life. I see this space as a platform for me to pour my inner thoughts and feelings, and still being able to admit that I'm responsible for writing all these things. I'll try to ensure that my opinions are more likely to be based on critical judgement and not so much of my emotions. But, who am I trying to fool here? Like any other females, overpowered by feelings and emotions, I find it very difficult to hold on to that.

I had a rough night and said things that I wasn't proud of. I'm so touched, yet at the same time, angry. But most of all, I'm upset. I definitely do not have a very good reason for feeling this way nor do I think I deserve to feel this way. All I know is that i'm conflicted and confused. I want him to go with me and at the same time, I don't want him to.

But all that I'm feeling right now is not much of a concern anymore, It's official. He's not coming.


new past